well, they say " dun put all ur eggs in 1 basket" yes i know.... but if u put them in many...it aint easy to manage all... and in the end? they have a higher chances of being unwatched.. if we put them all in 1 basket, then at least we can focus all our attention to it rather thn to so many baskets. guess this applies to humans too.... diversify too much, and u end up with crap ppl. put them all together, and AT LEAST u'll get afew outspoken ones......

i'll face myself... and cross out what i've become.



today this ends...

arrrrgh... feel my life's getting fked up. everything is yet again screwing up! ffs its like im trapped in this never ending cycle... and why the fk do i always play the asshole?! ugh.. sorry to those who see me like an asshole or whatever u call it... i never ment to be that. with so much things just screwing up since last year and me being caught up in it... i guess im just not who i used to be...


and dogs do help ppl to chill.... i guess im just troubled and paranoid .. what a way to live life huh........



im not doing this shit for a fking popularity contest... thts nt what im here for. i dun give a shit if im popular or if im hated .and i certianly dont giv a damn if ur more "popular". so pls. just leave me the heck alone. i just wanna do everyone some good. i dont want their life to screw up just like mine or urs. i hope u can see this as clearly as me.....



"When did I lose my sense of purpose?Can I regain what's lost inside?"

just learned another few things today...

1) give some1 something he doesnt have in the past just like that, and he will misuse and abuse it, just to make sure he will continue to have it...

2) as long as i know what im doing is right, nothing else matters to me. nothing is gonna cloud my judgement or what im going to do...


guess not many people know me well enough to know what im really going though...
once again, im back to my miserable self.. but at least now i know why... time to right the wrongs in my life...

well. got some results back today... nothing fantastic though..ugh haha.... kinda sucky anyway.... so yea.. hopefully can get more a1s. haha... nth else to blog already.. too little things happening nowadays to blog... BORING time of my life..

realized how scouts is screwing up my life. lol..... oh how i loath to think abit all that shit now.......


"i bleed it out, digging deeper, just to throw it away"~ Bleed It Out, LP
also just realized how LP's songs relates to how im feeling..

also realized im realizing alot of things nowadays....hmm... strange....

GEOG left for this week. =) yay! prelimes= almost over. monday chem p1 and phy p1.. tomorrow gonna *celebrate* some1s birthday. [ remind me to try and get hold of some ducktape] lols. haha.... almost at Os already.. stupid yellow board hanging outside the hall is super demoralizing... its ment to make us feel frightened and study more. NOT WOKING! maybe the sch shd use reverse phsycology... maybe they shd hire lam... lol. anyway, im off to slack...cya.

im bored, im tired, and i dun wanna study. lol... haha..shit thats a bad sign...oh well....downed emath and amath today... and guess whats on tomorrow? PHYSICS P2 AND HIST...what a wonderful combination.... im sure we "CAN" all remember every damn thing stalin did to improve russia, hitlers foreign policys, the truman and marshal plan, rest of cold war, treaty, japan, life aft ww2, leauge of nations, W=PT, F-f=ma, P=f/a, p1v1=p2v2 , brownian motion, and other stuff, and spill it all out in 1 day. yeah no problem. no kicks. =) how i wish i can say that lah....haha... well. gtg memorise it all.... blog some other time then.....