finally... a chance to get out of the house... i've been told not to coop myself at home cuz its a for sure way to die.. so yeah. went out to ponggol end... and damn, that place brings back hell lots of memory. from the torturous PLTC which in just 1 night turned us into zombies ( by that i mean serious lack of sleep (around 2 hrs or less for 2 days), non-stop physical activities and hardcore screwing with your mind ) , to the fantastic OBS i went to. and somehow, somewhat, back to you..

damn.. either im not trying hard enough to get u out, or i really cant. how is it possible that your in my mind for so long? this is so much harder than i though.. geeze....

well... anyways.. hang around till late watching movies and enjoying the breeze with the usuals.. this IS, afterall, going to be what i think is the last final time being SCHOOL-LESS together... so they'd better enjoy while they can eh? =p haha. man i still got 1 more month of hardcore slacking b4 they start sending me the info. and im still clueless on what im gonna do till then..


gonna slack some more then. cyah
-loh.

"Somewhere in the distance
There's a place for me to go
I don't want you to hate me
But I think you need to know
You're weighing on my shoulders
And I'm sick of feeling down
So I guess it's time for me to say goodbye..."

sigh.. i feel so lost... what should i do? fate? should i put everything i've got into something that no one really knows is there? what if both our fates are diffrent? wont i be losing everything? ugh..
i dont want this flame to die off..... but i guess ur not keen on getting it back up again.... sigh. feeling like crap. i need something to pre-occupy my mind from drifting to such subjects. every damn thing around me seems to be like its working like clockwork except for me.. somehow its like rubbing it in..




i miss you and past...

guess this is really the LOWEST point in my life..... sigh. seriously.... it sucks to be me right now. it sucks to the core.... im at a lost.. ugh.. i just wish u knew how is it to be me in this kinda really ____ed position



and its all because of one person

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?


I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time


I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
(Was it something I did?)
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?


I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time


I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again


I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again



i doubt you'll be reading this anyway....