i just cant bear to give up something thats in my life for 8 years..something i hav worked so hard for..something i would die for...and now i just have to give it all up? just like that? i just cant do that......everyone i've come to know..in fact, all my best friends too....everything i've learnt. everything i am toady..is due to it. now i feel its slowly disintegrating...tearing up..ripping into tiny little pieces....being thrown in the drain, and washed away by the water..i just dont know what i can do now. i feel so helpless!!!! arrrrgh....i cant give it all. not because i dont want to, its because i cant afford to.... nothing can describe how i feel now...